Journal page
This is about as good as this page is going to get. I have pushed past the really ugly to get to mediocre. At some point you just have to say enough. The quote from http://blog.luluart.com.au/2016/01/29/colour-me-positive-week-5/ is "If your dreams don't scare you they aren't big enough". I am not sure if I believe that or not.